Note to Self

“Errm.. Hello.. You there?”

Silence.

“You there?!”

Silence.

“I know it’s been long. I don’t even know how to speak to you anymore. I’m still attempting though.. I want to apoligise.”

Silence.

“I’m sorry. I know that I’ve been incognito for years.. But I really need you right now.”

Silence.

“I don’t know what to tell you to come back.. I really need you right now.”

Silence.

“Are you even there? I need some sort of an acknowledgement.. Even a “Hmm” will do.. I really need to talk to you right now. At least hear me out.. I’ll feel lighter.. I can’t trust anyone else with this.”

“What is it?”

“Okay. So I just thought I heard you respond. Did you?! Or am I just imagining it?”

“That’s a disputable fact. Most people would think that. Now spit it out before I change my decision..”

“Are you serious? It’s been so long. I’ve forgotten what it’s like to speak to you. Will you really hear me out?!”

“Yes. Stop being this excitable. Now go on before I change my mind.”

“Don’t you need any sort of an alibi? I mean, I can explain.”

“None needed. You get ahead of yourself sometimes. I’m quite used to this. It’s not the first time you know. But if you continue, I will really go away. And I mean it this time. You’re a few months away from 25. Its time you got responsible.”

“How do you mange to sound this practical always? I mean, we’re like the same person. I’m a part of you and you’re a part of me. In essence, were like the same person.”

“Yes, we are. I’m just grounded and you’re flaky. You need to learn that from me.”

“Ouch. You really know how to make me feel rotten, don’t you?”

“True. I know you as well as you know yourself. You just need to speak to me before you make those rash decisions. I know the thought of insides make you squirm but believe me when I say that you need to trust your gut.”

“Ergh. Can you please not be this graphic? You’re one pricky conscience.”

“Nothing personal really. I’m just doing my job.”

“Right. You take yourself a bit too seriously don’t you?”

“I do. Now, enough of this banter. What was it that was troubling you?”

“Come to think of it, it’s not anymore.. (Pause) Ermm.. Listen..”

“I always am.. (Laughs)”

“That wicked sense of humor is still around I see?”

“Get to the point. What do you want to tell me?”

“Thank you for speaking to me on such short notice. I have been extremely self – centered. Which is ironical, I know.

“Interestingly, yes.”

"So later then. I’ll call on you if I need you.”

“Sure, I’m always around.”

“I noticed. Chal, bye”

“Bye.”